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heartxxbreaker @ 2004-08-05T20:24:00

2004-08-06T03:22:11Z

i got a new username. this one was getting old so if u want my new one then leave a comment and i'll give it to you.

FUN FUN FUN

2004-08-06T02:08:51Z

Well the past couple of days i've been having alot of fun. Its been really cool...I've been going to parties and getting drunk off my ass most of the time. Well i have a boyfriend now and i'm happy...I really like him...His name is Jake. He is hella hot and i love the way he acts and he is so cool to be with. Well i really like him and i'm happy now. Well thats it for now...not much to say...Love ya all bye.

Today was ok i guess!!

2004-07-28T11:13:23Z

Hey everybody whats up?? Not too much here. Well its 3:55 am Wednesday and i'm at Chelsea's house. Well today me and Chelsea met up with these 2 dudes that have a car. Their really ugly though. But anyways, after that we met up with jade and went to McDonalds and chilled there for like and hour and a half. After we went to the skatepark and went to see who was there that we knew. Well not many people were there but it was kewl. We hung out there til 11:30 and then Steve came and picked us up and gave us a ride home. Well i saw Richard on our way home so we stopped and ended up giving him a ride home cuz he was drunk off his ass. Well i'm glad he got home ok.So tomorrow he is gonna come over to Chelsea's house and were gonna give him a hair cut cuz his hair is all curly and he needs to cut it a bit but were not cutting it short cuz we like it long. Well there isnt much more to say. Talk to you later. Buh Bye

~Megan

SO CONFUSED

2004-07-27T06:21:45Z

Hey everybody whats up? Well today wasnt that good of a day. Well Richard, Alexis's ex-boyfriend left a message on her cell and i happened to check it and he was saying that he is back home and that is not good. My heart has been hurting all day. I know she is either gonna cheat on me with him or break up with me for him. I dont know what to do. I cant talk to her cuz she is grounded and i dont know what to do. I'm so upset i hate this. This sucks so bad. I mean i'm glad he is back home but i know her too well. She is gonna cheat on me. I cant stop crying cuz i know something bad is going to happen. My heart hurts so bad. I cant explain the feeling and it sucks. I dont know why i get this wierd feeling everytime i feel like she is gonna cheat on me. i wish somebody out there knew how i feel. I could really go for some advice right about now. Well i dont have much more to say so i guess thats it. Love ya all.
~Megan

ROUGH!

2004-07-25T04:40:49Z

Well i spent the night at Chelsea's last night and we hung out. Well i found something else out about Alexis that she was hiding from me. I cant believe she hides this shit from me. It just makes everything worse. I hate it. But i talked to her today and were kewl. Well i dont have much to talk about. I miss Alexis. I cant wait til Valentyna and Veronica come out here. Were gonna have a blast. Its gonna be so much fun. Were gonna party 24/7. I cant wait. Me and Chelsea are gonna get them so DRUNK!...LOL. Anyways i miss alexis so much. I really hope i made the right decision by asking her back out. But its hard to know cuz she is grounded and i cant see her right now. All i think about is her and i dont know. Its kinda wierd being inlove with the same sex but thats the way i feel and i cant get over it. I mean i dont know she has hurt me so bad in the past and i dont want to get hurt in the future. It sucks, i feel like everytime i'm not with her that she is out with some guy or girl who knows cheating on me. I really wish she wasnt that kind of person that goes around cheating on people. Well she doesnt go around cheating on people but she has broke alot of promises and has cheated on me but i dont know. I just really love her and i dont want to hurt anymore over her. Well i guess that is it for right now. Love ya all! buh bye

~Megan

heartxxbreaker @ 2004-07-22T02:23:00

2004-07-22T04:55:19Z

Well today was an ok day. I spent the night at Alexis's house last night. We had alot of fun. We hung out til about 5 am and then watched the sun rise. Well we woke up at 1 pm and then we mostly played video games all day. Well i cant believe Patrick is gone. I really hope he comes back. I miss him already. Well once again Gina is pissing me off and not being such a good friend. She thinks that i ditched her the other day and she got mad cuz i went to hang out with Patrick instead of spending the night at her house. I only went to hang out with him cuz it was his last day here and cuz he might stay there for the rest of high school. I cant believe she wont understand that. She is not very good at being a bast friend. Sorry to say but all she does is lies. She doesnt realize it but she uses the same exuse "my dad is in a bad mood". She needs to make up a different exuse because me and Alexis are tired of the same one that we have been putting up with for almost a year. Well it looks like to me that Gina just lost to friends cuz of all the shit she does like when she gets mad she will either bite you or punch you and leave big ass bruises and everybody just gets tired of it. Me and Alexis got tired of it quikly and thats why we havent been hanging out with her that much. Well i gots to go now. Love ya all!

~Megan

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

2004-07-20T05:07:57Z

Well today was a great day. I hung out with Chelsea today and we went back to her house to hang out. It was fun. Well after that we went to Alexis's dance. I was so happy to see her. Well i asked her back out and she said "YES". I missed her so much. I dont know why i even broke up with her. All i thought about was her. Well Gina is probly gonna hate both of us now cuz she didnt want us to get back together. Well if she gets mad about us getting back together then she isnt a very good friend. Well Alexis is still grounded and i miss her. Well i might be able to spend the night at her house on Wednesday cuz her mom likes me. Well i dont have that much more to say so see ya. Love ya all!
~Megan

Confused

2004-07-18T05:29:39Z

Hey everybody, Well i havent wrote for a while. I guess i have been busy. Well i'm a little confused right now. Tom doesnt act like he likes me or like were going out. Chelsea and Patrick agree with me. Well i know Chelsea does but i'm not quite sure if Patrick does. But anyways, we went to play pool the other night and Tom acted like we were complete strangers. Well i'm confused because i dont even know if he likes me or not. Well Tom if your reading this i need to know if you really like me or not cuz u dont act like it. Just tell me if u want to be with me or not. Well Patrick is leaving to Texas on Wednesday and i dont want him to leave. Well Patrick if your reading this we need to make the best out of the next few days before u leave. I love ya all!
~Megan

heartxxbreaker @ 2004-07-11T22:59:00

2004-07-12T06:11:53Z

Hey whats up everybody? Not much here. Well i talked to Tom on the phone last night. We got to know eachother a little bit more. Well we got disconnected on the phone so i got on the internet and we started talking on there. We got to know eachother even more no there and then he decided that we could start calling ourselves a couple now. I was so happy! :-)
I like him so much and now we are finally together. Well i'm glad me and Tom are together now. Hopefully we will be together for a while. Well i dont know how much we have in common but we do have some things in common. We both like to Skank and we both like the same kind of music and thats a good thing. Well we will get to know eachother a little bit more then we will have a lot more in common. Well thats it for today.
~Megan

heartxxbreaker @ 2004-07-11T01:30:00

2004-07-11T08:50:35Z

Hey Everybody, Well today was an ok day i guess. I didnt do much. Mostly hung out at Chelsea's house. Well the day before that Me,Josh,Eliot,Tom,and Cody all went to the Aquabats concert. It was awesome. I skanked pretty much the entire time. After that we all went back to Chelsea's house and got drunk. It was so much fun. Well Eliot took Josh and Cody home and when he got back we all went upstairs and played strip poker. It was fun. Well Me,Tom, and Chelsea all lost. We had to get completely naked. It sucked! Eliot was the only one who won. I bet he was enjoying it when Chelsea had to take off her clothes. Chelsea was the only one TRASHED! The rest of us were sober. Well after that we all put our clothes back on and just hung out. Well Chelsea was getting tired and we decided that 4 people could sleep in her small ass twin sized bed. Well the best thing happened to me. I was laying next to Tom. He started to hold my hand then we just started to make out. He is a GREAT KISSER! Well i really hope he starts to like me cuz i would really love to get to know him and date him. Hopefully he will start to like me enough to where he would ask me out, if not then it was worth a try and i'll still have him as a friend. Well i got to go now. Love ya all!
Megan

I think I hate my best friend

2004-07-08T06:51:24Z

Well today was i good day. I hung out with Patrick all day. I mostly thought about Alexis all day. Well later on that night my friend Gina called and told me some stuff i didnt want to hear. Well now i'm really mad at Alexis and i have been crying ever since.I need to get over her. I like this guy named Mick but i doubt he likes me and i think he has a girlfriend. But i dont know. Well i dont know if i want to be friends with Alexis anymore. I promised her i would always be friends with her but she has made alot of promises too and she broke them all. I'm still gonna be her friend but i will never forgive her. Well i really need to talk to her but she is grounded so i dont know what to do. I might sneek out to her house and talk to her on Friday. Well i guess that is it for right now. I need to get a boyfriend, it is the only way i can get over her. Well this time i really want to get over her. I wanted her back after she broke up with me but after what i heard i dont want her back anymore. She disgusts me. NOW I KNOW HOW AARON FEELS! FUCK YOU! YOU HURT ME HELLA BAD THIS TIME!
LOVE, MEGAN

Why am i such a bad girlfriend?

2004-07-01T21:32:48Z

Hey everybody whats up? Not to much here. Well i went driving today and it was kinda fun. I talked to Alexis and we kinda got into an arguement but i dont know. Maybe somebody can help me. She says that she wants to be with me and then the next thing you know,all she is talking about is how ride i am towards her. Thats not my fault, i get jealous really easily.I dont know why she wants to be with somebody like me. I just hope this whole thing stops. I'm tired of argueing and never having fun when i'm with her. Everytime somebody goes to her house or something they always come back with this long story. Everytime i go over there she never thinks of anything to do. It seems like we cant even be friends anymore. Well yesterday i was talking to her and she said that i dont like to do the things she likes to do and i said like what and she could only think of one thing. DANCING! So Patrick if your reading this, When are you gonna teach me how to dance. I told her i didnt know how to dance. I can only Ska dance. Well maybe i will have something to write later cuz i'm done for now.

heartxxbreaker @ 2004-06-28T20:25:00

2004-06-28T23:06:44Z

Hey guys whats up? Well i'm bored and i guess i felt like i needed to write something. I dont know what i'm gonna write but i will find something. I always do. Well yesterday was a fun day. I hung out with Patrick and we went to go bowling. I saw Alexis at the bowling ally. She came to hang out with us while her mom and them went to eat. I'm glad i saw her there. I missed her. Well i got my tongue pierced the other day and i thought it was gonna hurt but i didnt even feel it. Everybody says that it hurts a day or two after but it doesnt for me because i took pain killers and they work so. Its hard to eat though. Well last night when me and Patrick got back from bowling we hung out at my house for a bit. Alexis called me and we talked on the phone for a while. She asked me back out last night and i didnt know what to say so i told her that i would have to think about it. I thought about it and still didnt know what to say so i asked my friend for some advice and now i know my answer. I'm gonna say YES. I know i'm making the right decision because if i say no then i will sit in my room and say "WHAT IF?" Its worth a shot. If it doesnt work out then we will still be best friends. I dont know why people say that when u break up your not supposed to be best friends but u are if u want to. I'm not saying any names but my friend told Alexis that your not supposed to be best friends after you break up.Its like she doesnt want me and Alexis to be best friends. Well i dont care what anybody says, me and Alexis will always be best friends no matter what. Well i think i'm talking to much so i guess i'll go now. Talk to you later. Love ya all.
Megan

heartxxbreaker @ 2004-06-22T01:23:00

2004-06-22T03:59:28Z

Hey guys whats up? Wow i havent wrote in a while. Well i dont have very much to say. My life is kinda boring. Me and Alexis are definately not getting back together and i dont know if i want to move on because i'm scared that if i do i might hurt Alexis. I love her but i still need to move on. She tells me that she cant move on but i think she will end up moving on anyways. I hope she does but i hope its with somebody that i will know is right for her. If she does move on i hope its with somebody that will take care of her and be there for her because i dont think she will want me to do that anymore. I think that if she gets a boyfriend she will want him to take care of her and be there for her but i dont want anybody to take my place. I know were not together anymore but thats what i do. Its like if your parents get divorced then you dont want anybody to take your mom or dads place well thats the way i feel. i just really hope nobody takes my place and she still always comes to me and lets me take care of her. Well i guess i'll go now. bye bye! Love, Megan

heartxxbreaker @ 2004-06-13T03:17:00

2004-06-13T05:48:36Z

Hey guys whats up? Well today was fun. When i woke up i watched a couple movies with my sister. That part was boring. I went to Patricks after the movies were over. Over there Patrick and i got ready for the concert at desert breeze. Patrick and i went to mcdonalds and drove by desert breeze to see if there was really a concert. We found out that there really wasnt one. Jade and Chelsea came over to Patricks house and we decided to go to the movies. We went to see Harry Potter 3. It was ok i guess. After that we decided to sneak into The Day After Tomorrow. That was a really good movie. We went and ate at Taco Bell a little bit after that, then we called Patricks step dad to come and pick us up. Well now we are at my house about to watch Joy Ride. I gots to go. Love ya all.
LOVE,
MEGAN

heartxxbreaker @ 2004-06-10T22:03:00

2004-06-11T05:18:23Z

Hey guys whats up? Today was a fun day. I got to see Alexis and i havent seen her in a while. I felt like she was a total stranger. It felt kinda weird since were not together and everything. I got over it after a while though. It was so great seeing her though. She looked so good. Well kinda atleast. I didnt really like the makeup Gina put on her though. Maybe Gina is trying to turn her preppie or something. I dont know. Well anyways, Alexis heard from J.R. and Billy that i made out with this kid Cameo. That is not true. I wouldnt do that to her. I love her way too much to do that. I'm am way to inlove with her. I miss her so much. It felt so great touching her today. It felt like i havent seen her in ages. Well after that Chelsea and i met up with patrick and went to Chelsea's house. We pigged out,HELLA. Around 7 pm Chelsea, Patrick, and i went to the movies. We hung out there til about 9:15. After that we came to my house. Well that is pretty much it. I gots to goes now. Love ya all, Ecspecially you ALEXIS. BYE BYE.
MEGAN

heartxxbreaker @ 2004-06-09T03:25:00

2004-06-09T01:36:12Z

Hey what's up? Today was a very boring day. I woke up feeling all sick and everything. I had a sore throat and a and could barely talk. I'm still feeling a little sick, but i'll get over it. Well i've been having some problems with Alexis, but we got over them. We talked and we might get back together. I asked my friend for some advice and he gave me some really good advice. He said that if i really did miss her that much and still loved her that much then i'm still inlove with her and that i should get her back...So i thought about it for a while and realized that i am still inlove with her. Well that's it for right now i guess. Bye Bye
Love,
Megan

heartxxbreaker @ 2004-06-08T06:20:00

2004-06-08T04:46:11Z

Hey guys what's up? Patrick spent the night last night. He woke me up at 10:30 in the morning just so we could catch the bus and go to the mall. We were supposed to get pictures taken, but it cost too much. Patrick was craving HotDog on a Stick. After we ate we went to buy Patrick some shoes. After he got his shoes we went to walk around. We were so bored. We called Elsie and went to hang out there for a while. Well enough with the boring stuff. Today i realized how inlove i am with my ex-girlfriend Alexis. You know some people say you dont know what you have til you lose it...Well i think that is true. Ever since Alexis and i broke up all i thought about was her and what a great relationship we had. I guess i miss that and i want her back. Alexis if your reading this, i just want to let you know that i really do love you and i want you back. I'm still inlove with you. If anybody out there that is reading this and is against gay relationships...well then FUCK YOU! I love you Alexis. Well Bye Bye!
LOVE,
MEGAN

heartxxbreaker @ 2004-06-06T21:50:00

2004-06-07T04:57:24Z

Hey guys whats up? Today Patrick called me and we decided to go to Chelsea's and hang out with her. When we got there it ended up that Eric, Patrick's enemy, was going to be there too. So we had to go pick him up at the bus stop. We did then he made this big deal about wanting to sock patrick in the face and not wanting to see him at all. So Patrick, Breann, Jade, and I went to Village square and were bored as fuck there while Eric, Elssie, and Chelsea had fun. Finally we called Chelsea and told her a lie saying that we broke her cell phone just so that she'd come and enetertain us (LoL)...she came and Patrick and I decided to go back to Chelsea's house to hang out and Patrick said he'd just ignore Eric...Jade and Breann decided to stay at the theaters...hmm...At Chelsea's house Eric was acting all weird and funny while Chelsea was on the phone...There was all this drama with Patrick and Kahdisja but yea...so now Patrick and I are going to the pool....so yea yea.

Love,
Megan